6. What is the fruit?

Everything we do and everything we say, bears FRUIT. Matthew 7:16,17, & 20 says, "You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thornbushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit ... Therefore by their fruits you will know them."

I'm thinking of the fruit in my life as a result of being in Splankna therapy over the past few years. I am SO THANKFUL for the fruit! Since we act and react according to our past pain, when that pain is cleared out (using the tools in Splankna) and the Holy Spirit is able to pour into us His fruit--love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, (Galatians 5:22) I am able to remain calm in volatile situations! THAT is a MIRACLE!!! I don't thrash and attack back like I formerly did! Also, my propensity to be passive-aggressive just isn't there! It is easier to be truthful and sincere and to get my ideas across without being hateful and negative. Now, are these volatile situations I'm in excruciatingly difficult? YES!!! It takes tons of emotional energy and lots of recovery time, but it's so nice to walk away from those situations knowing that the Holy Spirit held me together!

More fruit? I spent many, many years being angry with God. In my opinion, He was always fickle. He would answer my "every-day" prayers, but the deep, yearning, cries of my heart to be released from the emotional pain that CONSTANTLY ate me up? Those prayers didn't feel answered. No relief seemed to come--until my Splankna sessions! (See blog post number 5.)

Other fruit from these sessions is that I FEEL deeply loved by God. Before Splankna, I knew in my head that God loved me, but honestly I identified with Esau in the verse in Romans 9:13, "As it is written, 'Jacob I have loved, but Esau I have hated.' " I KNOW I am precious to God! I left every Splankna session saying, "Really? Really God??? You did THAT for ME??? You care about ME so much that You would reveal THAT to me and WASH ME CLEAN IN YOUR BLOOD??? You love ME THAT MUCH???"

I also LOVE God's word SO much more than I did before. When science and the Bible disagree, I know that the Bible is correct. I LOVE being in His word.

Before Splankna, I was scared to death of God's will. I was afraid He would ask me to do things I didn't want to to. Now, I LONG to do His will and be His servant! I feel His call to be a Splankna therapist, and that is a MASSIVELY huge, EXCESSIVELY brave step for me to take, since I'm a person who had a self-esteem in the negatives--on a scale from 1 to 10! I would and still do say, "God PLEEEEEEEASE use me!!!" wondering the entire time if He CAN or if He WILL use me in this way. I place my fears into His hands every time I do a Splankna session, as a therapist! Splankna therapy is HIS work. It is HIS place to show up and work in someone's life. AND HE DOES. HE SHOWS UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!